Momentary Lapse

Going to my secret place of solitude

I collapse gracelessly to my knees

The weight of my anguish proves to be much

Eyes red and swollen with my unshed tears

 I look to the heavens as I gather my breath

I dig my hands in the earth to anchor myself

I know that I am safe

That I am alone

For this one moment I can drop the façade and let go

So I scream

Until my throat is raw and my voice is gone

Only then, I cry soul-wrenching sobs from the deeps of my being

I cry until my eyes dry out

Then I pull my anchor

I reclaim my grace

I place my mask back on gathering my dignity and strength as it covers my face