Momentary Lapse

Going to my secret place of solitude
I collapse gracelessly to my knees
The weight of my anguish proves to be much
Eyes red and swollen with my unshed tears
 I look to the heavens as I gather my breath
I dig my hands in the earth to anchor myself
I know that I am safe
That I am alone
For this one moment I can drop the fa├žade and let go
So I scream
Until my throat is raw and my voice is gone
Only then, I cry soul-wrenching sobs from the deeps of my being
I cry until my eyes dry out
Then I pull my anchor
I reclaim my grace
I place my mask back on gathering my dignity and strength as it covers my face